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Give it to ya till you're screaming my name.

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♥Monday, November 30, 2009♥

又要过一个月了
再过一个月就开学

我知道那时的感觉会不同
因为你不会再出现

我的生活开始改变
现在过着的生活我也很满意
有很多朋友陪着
不觉得寂寞
而你慢慢在我生活里消失
几天没联络了也没怎么样
而我一开始认识你从来不会主动找你

单身的我可以很自由的跟谁出去
跟我出去的大多数都是我好友
别人怎样想我都不会理

虽然做某些事会想起你
可是我不会应许再发生
当初就算不愿意

我也不会让你看到我不想要的选择
我从来不让你等我的信息
所以在五分钟内选择结束

从此你的事再也与我无关
朋友的关心我知道一定还在.




New Moon. Edward said.
When you cant be with the one you love , will you stay with the one who loves you ?


Carmen Beloved Life.



♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 5:16 PM

♥Friday, November 27, 2009♥


今天店里很多人.
顾客一直试衣服忙到透不过气.
从十二点多忙到五点多 @@
脸上还要带着笑容..-.-
有些顾客真的很挑剔..黑又太黑白又太白.
真难搞最好不是我serve他们.

幸亏我聪明大概十二点自己走去mega买些东西.
然后再去找朋友聊天..哈哈. xD

晚餐时间到了.
没什么心情吃东西也不知道为什么.
可是肚子已经在叫我了...
我自己又走去mega打包mcd回店吃..
一个人走时, 突然想起了凯德.
今天的那个时候我看他是在我旁边的.
如果他在我就不会打包mcd吃我会陪他省钱吃他想要吃的东西.
算吧.日子还是要过.
吃了晚餐顾客走了后.
我趁机坐在地上睡觉=p
过了不久又有顾客来.
就不能睡了 =X

礼物下个星期才送你.
不好意思不能去你的生日会.
就陪你去看戏吧 =)

明天还有做工.
希望不会太累~!!!


♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 11:08 PM

♥♥

Just now went to ECM watch 'New Moon'

http://behindblondiepark.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/new-moon1.jpg

To me is sweet and romantic movie.
Bella was so brave and she protect his lover.
Edward and Jasper handsome~@@

Alice was pretty.
I love them~!!!

The ending was so good. I love it so much~!!!
I can't wait to watch next story. 'Eclipse'.
Renee said this movie will on next year around June only cant watch.
I will wait for it. =)

After watch, went to yam cha and eat lok lok.
I still want watch again New Moon if can. hehe


Tomorrow need work.

Took it before went to ECM.

♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 12:31 AM

♥Wednesday, November 25, 2009♥

Woke up on 11 morning
After had my breakfast, have to prepare to go for a hair cut.
Reach saloon, but mum's friend already went KL for somethings to do.
So I'll only get my hair cut next week, don't wanna let the worker cut. xD

When in the car mum said going to buy new mattress for me.
Waooo.. there shall we go~
Waited so long looking at mum 'slotting price' with that guy.
Anyway bought a new mirror and mattress ,
Today spent almsot RM2000.

Next week mum wanna get a hair cut,
Two person together will pokai @@

Money Please fly to me here,
I need you for shopping~

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一首诗.

你承载着我给你的忧伤
一次又一次地忍让

在寒月的微光中
你留住我远走的脚步
却阻止不了我的心随夜色流浪
我承受不了你的爱
正如接受不了被伤害
也曾温柔的心已冻僵
你却想把它融化
于是用心把我装下
却发现是在为自己的心插一把刀
你是我心底想都不敢想的伤
忘都忘不了的痛
你是我心底的一片净土
一片向往的守候
只是你不属于我
所以不愿靠近你
只是默默的注视着你
让我对你心里永远都存一份幻想
我只要远远的看着你
默默的思念你……


Carmen Beloved Life.



♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 12:13 AM

♥Monday, November 23, 2009♥


No work today.

Whole day stay at home. In room just online.
Watch 海派甜心 this movie funny and nice.
Waiting come out next ep. Hope time pass past. I want watch it~!


Tomorrow cut hair lu.
Happy =)


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这是一首诗.很有意思.在网上找到的.

我忍着悲伤和无奈
就躲在房间不出来
无法阻挡时间在快转
只能把爱藏在回忆深海
不想面对的是学着习惯成自然
我会把爱隐藏到谁都看不出来
大海在继续却与你无关
这不是鸵鸟的心态
只是我还无法释怀
我还爱你再不会说出来

只能把爱藏在回忆深海
不想面对的是学着习惯成自然
我会把爱隐藏到谁都看不出来
大海在继续却与你无关

只能让爱离开回忆深海
不想面对的是只能学着习惯成自然
对你的爱寂寞让我却还在依赖
你要的幸福却与我无关


Carmen Beloved Life.



♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 5:21 PM

♥Saturday, November 21, 2009♥


Woke up on 10:05am, I got my mum and my friends to wake up me.
Was just siting in the shop, felt hungry and already I brought some things to eat.
Aunty reached shop bout 12noon, asked her when my break time.
She said I like~ if there not much costumer anytime is fine.

So I have my break bout 1pm, unluckily it's raining heavily when I thought of lunch~
Boon and Charmaine came looking for me and Accompany me for lunch.

Went back shop took the umbrella and walk go to ECM. xD
It was really very cold~ and My shoes were wet~!
It's still not dry by now~
but it's okay for me, cause I din wear shoes while working. > <

When no customer rather sit on floor felt more comfortable.
I decide tomorrow for work wear slipper only,
and will plan to buy a shoes from the shop.
Will record in book. owe aunty first. =p
Tomorrow who to lunch with?
I cant decide. many people la..
Mega, ecm or my gang friends ? @@

Come visit me if free, but only for girl. hehe

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这首歌有我的感觉.
我真的在努力.
对不起.

歌名:答应不爱你

明明爱很清晰 却又接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及 爱早已融入呼吸
不存在的存在心底

虽然很努力 练习着忘记
我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你
真的对不起 答应了你不再爱你
我却还没答应我自己

明明爱很清晰 却要接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及 就让爱融入空气
不存在的存在心底


说好要忘记 偏偏又想起
原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你
真的对不起 虽然曾经答应了你
我却还没答应我自己
却又如何真的不爱你




♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 12:03 AM

♥Wednesday, November 18, 2009♥


Took my result today went home bout 10am,
my result was like really "good"..haha~
I got 3rd place in class on last Midyear exam, but on the Finals..opss..drop to No.9 in class.

Many were cheating in the exam,
Teacher said that cc and I were "cakap banyak" in class..=p

Nothing much to do at home just online and watch movie, fall sleep half way~~@@ then wake up for tution.. IT"S THE LAST DAY of TUITION..Happy ~

I wish my friends who are having SPM and STPM a very Good Luck~
Hope you guys can get good results =)

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今天, 是凯德的‘头七’
他们说第七天你会回来.
时间过得蛮快的.
凯德离开我们七天了.
我想他一定会过得比我们更好.
因为他是很坚强又开朗的.

这两天, 在学校我们都一直会提到凯德.
聊着关于他的事大家记得是要微笑的.
凯德真的给大家很多很多美好回忆.
星期五要开始做工了.我会小心, 不会像去年那样.

还是那一句
凯德,
我想你.
一路好走.



♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 12:11 AM

♥Tuesday, November 17, 2009♥


Tomorrow will be the last day to go school.
Will be working starting on Friday. I really plan to work, and I know I will look thiner after awhile.

Every Tuesday will still be having account tution but only utill the end of the month.
My form4 account is very very very 'good' d~
WIll be starting form5 soon, more geng. -.-''

Mummy not allowing me to dye hair!!
Pity for me! But now I have an idea only~!
cause my brother wants to dye too if he go, I want to go too~!!!!
Daddy help me la..........T_T
















I can only say,

I understand, feelingless,
cause I really dont know what I should say.



Carmen Beloved Life.



♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 12:00 AM

♥Sunday, November 15, 2009♥

Went to ECM today, GSC watched "2012" with friends.
There cinema better than Mega.


To me the movie is very exciting, funny, and touching too~
Feel afraid after watched the movie.
I couldn't imagine what I gonna do when the world end.

Places I haven't been to, things I have yet to done.
If the world would really comes to an end,
I will run or in the movie that crazy man waiting for death,
I will embraces my family , friends or my lover die together
? -.-''
Questions popping out from my head, And the sky is not bl
ue and nice.

Anyways. 2012 is a nice movie.
Strongly recommend you all to watch. =)

Reached home about 6, get changes and go grandmother house for dinner.
Have a Kit-Kat, "Chit chat" watched TV till 8 then follow mum to her friend's shop.
Aunty asked me to work for her,

Part-time only 3 days a week but it's on the weekends Friday till Sunday.
Should I go work? Arhhh.. If I work, I can't hang out with my
gang~!
But working can earn money, which result me able to shopping, on the other hand I now already been saving money... so how ? @@

Last year I also work at her shop,

Problems comes to me.

Remembering last year,
Everyday Khai Ther was there with me, we eat together.
Now he pass away, Who will accompany me?
Who will accompany me to eat, walk and eat fruit together after having lunch and dinner?
I have no idea~!


Went home bout 9.30pm, sat for a while...
Is time to "yam cha" with friends, cause they are on the way coming to pick me up.
While in the car talked about Khai Ther.
Omg..My tear start dropping and I cried in the car. tissue
~! I need it.
Sorry I really can't control myself, I just miss him too much.
T_T
Went to TC eat Mcd, My mood change a little after having conversation and food.

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Took some pic before went to ECM.


Monday, I want go to school to get form5 textbook, but most of my friends not going because they took it early before me~
Tuesday take result.
Not scare at all. Cause just final exam for me. Not SPM also. lolss

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我对你的思念
就像你对他的思念一样
我明白
我从来不多说
我从来不主动
也不埋怨什么

因为我们只是那种关系


Carmen Beloved Life.



♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 12:54 AM